THE JUMP-OFF

Well 2006 had started off good. I had met a man...yea!!! i knew going into it it would not be a relationship but hey atelast i was gettin sum. i did not know much about him which was good b/c it avoided all chances of catching any sort of feelings. we would talk mostly about sex but i was ok with that. so it brings me to now. 1 month into the new year and bam! i new it was going way too smoothly.

there i am the other night trying to fall asleep after getting stood up by my lil sex friend. all of a sudden the phone rings. i did not even look to see who it was. all i hear is a chicks voice. well it truns out its his girlfriend. i did not know and honestly i do not care. obviously u do not keep ya man in satisfied and he needed to go else where. she asked me many questions and i just kept lying....did she think i was gonna be honest? the problem was she had heard a message i had left him...oops!! so now he was caught. i have not heard from him since. my other issue with this is the fact u should keep ya hoes in check. how did she get my number and why was she listening to ya messages??? so now what to do? do i forget him? do i contact him? do i keep what was going on? well i guess i will have to keep ya'll posted on my first issue of 2006!

Just Another Day

Remember when you could not wait for it to be your birthday. well for some reason I dread it. Im not saying that i am "too old" to celebrate I just think they are not what they used to be. Maybe I am at that odd age where they just don't count. Today is my birthday acutally the 29th is but I just got in and had to vent. I decided I was not gonna celebrate it this year but with some push from the friends there will be a celebration firday night. So I make the plans, send a mass email and all i get is complaints. UMMM what kind a fun is that. If you don't like what I have decide to do then don't show. It is a simple as that. So tell me how to make a non significant birthday fun again. Is there no more fun once you pass the great age of 21??? Is it only fun if you have a man laid up under you??

Life is too Short

Its always hard when you loose someone. Its hard when its a friend. A friend who you did not realize you had so many feelings for until he was gone. You came into my life 3 years ago and on Saturday you were taken out. You were too young and still had so much to offer many. I'm sad that you are gone and I never got to say goodbye. I'll never forget our times together from our many smoke breaks to fighting about the jets and giants every weekend and to the day, October 21st, that you became so special to me. I'll miss all your text messages and phone calls just to say hi and see how I was doing. For all the smiles you put on my face with your corny jokes that always made me laugh I thank you! Its hard to say goodbye so I won't but more like till we meet again. And to you Brian aka the married man...I will miss you more than you or I could ever imagine!

I received this quote in an email about Brian today and its so true.

"It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth -- and that we have no way of knowing when our time is up, we will then begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had."